Hesitation Marks

i am just a copy of a copy of a copy
everything i say has come before
assembled into something into something into something
i don't know for certain anymore
i am just a shadow of a shadow of a shadow
always trying to catch up with myself
i am just an echo of an echo of an echo
listening to someone's cry for help

look what you had to start
why all the change of heart?
you need to play your part
a copy of a copy of a
now look what you've gone and done
well that doesn't sound like fun
see i'm not the only one
copy of a copy of a

i am little pieces little pieces little pieces
pieces that we picked up on the way
imprinted with a purpose with a purpose with a purpose
a purpose that's become quite clear today

i am just a finger on a trigger on a finger
doing everything i'm told to do
always my intention my intention your attention
doing everything you tell me to

look what you had to start
why all the change of heart?
you need to play your part
a copy of a copy of a
now look what you've gone and done
well that doesn't sound like fun
see i'm not the only one
copy of a copy of a

the throat is deep and the mouth is wide
saw some things on the other side
made me promise to never tell
you know me i can't help myself, no
now i got something you have to see
they put something inside of me
its smile is red and its eyes are black
i don't think i'll be coming back

i don't believe and i
i had to see
came back haunted
came back haunted
i said goodbye and i
i had to try and i
came back haunted
came back haunted

everywhere now reminding me
i am not who i used to be
i'm afraid this has just begun
consequences for what i've done

i don't believe and i
i had to see
came back haunted
came back haunted
i said goodbye and i
i had to try and i
came back haunted
came back haunted
you tried to tell me but i
i couldn't stop myself now i
came back haunted
came back haunted

just can't stop
came back haunted

lord my path has gone astray
i'm just trying to find my way
wandered here from far away
i'm just trying to find my way
you were never meant to see
all those things inside of me
now that you have gone away
i'm just trying to find my way

i have made a great mistake
pray the lord my soul to take
the ghosts of who i used to be
i can feel them come for me
it looks as though they're here to stay
i'm just trying to find my way

please
i never meant to
i never meant for this

i have been to every place
i have been to everywhere
i'm just trying to find my way
oh dear lord hear my prayer

go
i've heard all i need to know
your voice in fucking echo stereo
well this particular scenario
looks like another all time low
why did you go and let them in?
see this is where the fun begins
you haven't even pierced the skin
just wait till you see what is coming

get down on the floor
shut the god damn door
been down this road before
we're coming back for more

so give me just a little, baby
just something to get by
this is gonna last forever, baby
we'll get to the other side
and we will live forever, baby
and stretch across the sky
i'll follow right behind you, baby
we are never gonna die

hey
everything is not okay
we lost too much along the way
the passengers arrived today
it looks as though they're here to stay
this paranoia turns to fear
just who was whispering in your ear?
pretending, but i know you hear
(just how'd we fucking end up here?)

so give me just a little, baby
just something to get by
this is gonna last forever, baby
we'll get to the other side
and we will live forever, baby
and stretch across the sky
i'll follow right behind you, baby
we are never gonna die

we're never gonna die
how did we get so high?

if i were you
i wouldn't trust
a single word
i say
think by now
you should know
nothing's going
to change

can i ask you something?
what did you expect?
so disappointed
with what you get
do you ever want to
just get out of here?
disappointed
disappear

look at you
superman
with all the world
to save
you think by now
you'd figure out
that's nothing's going
to change
(and i am part of the reason)

can i ask you something?
what did you expect?
so disappointed
with what you get
do you ever want to
just get out of here?
disappointed
disappear

i survived everything
i have tried everything
everything
and anything

all the walls begin to dissolve away
feel your hands begin to shake
and just who you think you used to be
all begins to bend and break

wave goodbye
wish me well
i've become something else
something else
(just as well, really)

but this thing that lives inside of me
will surely rise and wake
and his seed that bleeds right through to me
as it comes to grab and take

i am home
i believe
i am home
i am free
i am home
i can see
always here
finally

data trails
like fingernails
scratch across the sky
hard to know
figure out
tell the truth from lies
everywhere
listening
every word you say
think i found
a way around
yeah i think i found a way
well, come on

satellite
i'm watching you
i'm one step ahead
satellite
i'm part of you
i'm inside your head

yes we can
yes we did
eliminate the spread
better watch
what you think
what was that you said?
everywhere
everything
every word you say
think i found
a way around
yeah i think i found
a way

i know you're up there somewhere
so very high

hallucinate in high fidelity
little pieces of a plan
construction of the highest quality
the blood from my own hand
a line of lyric looping in my head
nobody listening
i guess it really doesn't matter anymore
i guess it doesn't mean a thing

i've got to let it go
i've got to get straight
why'd you have to make it so hard?
let me get away

an effigy so wondrous to behold
a statement so profound
a place to bury every thing i did
and burn it to the ground
the fire illuminates our final scene
the past repeats itself
i can not tell the difference anymore
i can not trust myself

i've got to let it go
i've got to get straight
why'd you have to make it so hard?
let me get away

i think i could lose myself in here

i've got to let it go
i've got to get straight
why'd you have to make it so hard?
let me get away

got to let him go
find another way
why'd you have to make it so hard?
let me get away

i followed you again this morning
just close enough to feel you near
pretending everyone could see me
just slip away and disappear

they're right behind
they're so inclined
they're all aligned
we're undermined
as good as blind
i'm out of time
so hard to find
so well-defined
they're all aligned
they're intertwined
we're undermined
they're so inclined
we're right behind
so hard to find
as good as blind
i'm out of time

i'm running out of places i can hide from this
i'm running out of places i can hide from this
i'm running out of ways to keep on hiding this
i'm running out of places i can hide from this

i had a friend i think who knew me
i couldn't seem to make him stay
i know they're watching waiting for me
i know i'll never get away

i'm running out of places i can hide from this
i'm running out of places i can hide from this
i'm running out of places i can hide from this
i'm running out of places i can hide from this

what a pathetic string of words
just leave them lying on the floor
the warning posted on the door
not over here not anymore
there was a place that could have been
step over all that used to be
since you have let yourself come in
some things i'd rather you not see

see i keep lying to myself
don't know what else there is to do
if i could be somebody else
well, i think i would for you

didn't seem like something more?
so long i can't remember when
and this has happened all before
and this will happen all again
and i only have myself to blame
and i only have myself to blame

see i keep lying to myself
don't know what else there is to do
if i could be somebody else
well, i think i would for you

split
split into
something else
shed
your precious skin
save yourself
bleed
have to purge
what you were
yes
yes of course
this is going to hurt
nature is violent
the very nature of this is violence
no no no no no that was someone else
no no no no no no no that wasn't me

it's getting harder to tell the two of you apart
it's getting harder to tell the two of you apart
i don't believe you can even remember which one you are
it's getting harder to tell the two of you apart

thrive
just become
your disease
leave
them behind
you are free
take
what you want
what you deserve
yes
yes of course
this is going to hurt

it's getting harder to tell the two of you apart
it's getting harder to tell the two of you apart
i don't believe you can even remember which one you are
it's getting harder to tell the two of you apart

i just don't know anymore
i just don't know

i'm, i'm limited by,
by time, by gravity.
uhhm... by all these physical forces.
when... really i just uhh... i wish my consciousness
would be liberated completely free,
to go everywhere,
to be everywhere,
to do everything,
to be, to be everyone,
that i've ever dreamed of being.

we do not believe in human feelings,
nor in human senses,
nor human needs,
human values,
human fears,
or even human hopes.
the only purpose or believe,
is the path from the mind to the brain,
path from the mind to the brain,
mind... to the brain,
this is a preset world, there are no secrets.

i feel as though i found my soulmate.
uhm i never feel, i never feel alone or lonely,
that's just something i don't experience
- kind of feeling of alienation.
no matter how strange the world outside gets,
i know that there is someone that understands me.