The Slip

how did i slip into (this)?

kind of hard
hard to see
when you crawl
on your hands and your knees
with your face
in the trough
wait your turn
while they finish you off
don’t know when it started
don’t know how
should have found out
should have happened by now
got these lines
on my face
after all this time
and i still haven’t found my place

i jump from every rooftop
so high so far to fall
i feel a million miles away
i don’t feel any thing at all

i wake up
on the floor
start it up again
like it matters anymore
i don’t know
if it does
is this really all
that there ever was?
put the gun
in my mouth
close your eyes
blow my fucking brains out
pretty patterns
on the floor
that’s enough for you
but i still need more

i jump from every rooftop
so high so far to fall
i feel a million miles away
i don’t feel any thing at all

the sky is painted black
the smoke pours out the stack
one hand upon your heart
one hand behind your back
you train us how to act
you keep the fear intact
the imminent attack
everything is right on track

and we are letting you get away
we are letting you get away with it

upon our plates to feed
the dying left to bleed
how much we really need
your politics of greed
the cancer takes ahold
the wolf is in the fold
our destiny’s been sold
we do just what we’re told

and we are letting you get away
we are letting you get away with it

your armies filled with hate
believing your charade
begin to suffocate
for us it’s far too late

and we are letting you get away
we are letting you get away with it

am i still tough enough?
feels like i’m wearing down
is my viciousness
losing ground?
am i taking too much
did i cross a line
i need my role in this
very clearly defined
i need your discipline
i need your help
i need your discipline
you know once i start i cannot help myself

and now it's starting up
feels like i'm losing touch
nothing matters to me
nothing matters as much
i see you left a mark
up and down my skin
i don't know where i end
and where you begin
i need your discipline
i need your help
i need your discipline
you know once i start i cannot help myself
once i start i cannot stop myself

nice and high and far apart
just like they said
i built this place with broken parts
just like they said
you chip away the old version of you
you'd be surprised at what you can do
i'm safe in here
irrelevant
just like they said

my voice just echoes off these walls

you feel me breathe
i am watching you
i see it all
the many ways you can't get to me
i see it all
i see the hell you put yourself through
oh the things i could do (if i wanted to)

my voice just echoes off these walls
my voice just echoes off these walls
i don't need anything at all
my voice just echoes off these walls

and i just slowly fade away

you will never ever get to me in here

you
what you looking at?
head down
too late for that
what you want
what you get
know your place
don't ever forget

and this is not my face
and this is not my life
and there is not a single thing here
i can recognize
this is all a dream
and none of you are real
i'll give anything
i'll give anything

hey you
what you running from?
all your hate
what you've become
bet you didn't think
it would happen to you
all used up
half way through

and this is not my face
and this is not my life
and there is not a single thing here
i can recognize
this is all a dream
and none of you are real
i'll give anything
i'll give anything

she's mostly gone
some other place
i'm getting by
in other ways
everything they whispered in our ear
is coming true
try to justify the things
i used to do
believe in you

watching you drown
i'll follow you down
i am here right beside you
the lights in the sky
have finally arrived
i am staying right beside you

i tried to stay away
just in case
i've come to realize
we all have our place
time has a way you know
to make it clear
i have my role in this
i can't disappear
or leave you here

watching you drown
i'll follow you down
i am here right beside you
the lights in the sky
are waving goodbye
i am staying right beside you

1.
it keeps growing
and i can feel it breathe
i have been trying
to behave myself
it keeps growing
and i can feel it breathe
i have been trying
to tolerate you

2.
well i am reaching the point
yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah

3.
i thought maybe
i thought this would go away
but it continues
the only constant
every day
stronger

4.
i will use my voice
and i will use my fist
to destroy
everything i can

5.
now i know
what this is all about
now i know
exactly what i am

6.
there is a seed
inside of me
that makes me